maybe its time to move on? or not...huhuhu

hrm... I'm still caught in between decisions that could change my future and not to mention who I am... Between staying here in KL or going back to Kuching... Lets go through the pros and cons...

Kuala Lumpur
Pros	Cons
Family problem solved.. With me staying here, the family back at home will be at ease cuz my cousin will not be staying alone and there'll be me around to take care of her..	I'll have her and only her to talk with.. I dont have many friends here, and only occasionally I mingle with the neighbours cuz most of the time they're cooped up in their houses taking care of their little childrens...
I get to live by myself (technically..my cousin would still impose rules, but then we're both adults..), be independent, make my own decissions etc...	I'm not exactly deciplined, but I know how to manage myself.. and rather than being independent, I prefer to be controlled (o_O) by some1...
My cousin (and occasionally her boyfriend) would treat me to nice things to wear, joyful things to do and delicious food to eat...	Doing all that takes time and effort, and not to mention sometimes, I dont like to do/eat some things.. and I usually put on weight...
I could still find time to shuffle...probably...	I'd be doing it alone for a while...until I find contact here...

Kuching
Pros	Cons
I get to stay with the rest of the family, stay in my cosy little room, have all my stuffs (piano, ps2, car, scooter, wardrobe etc...) nuf said for now..	The family (and myself included) would be worried sick about my cousin who'd be staying alone in KL.. there was no problem before, but ever since the house got broken into, every1's worried...
I am (up to a certain point) free to go anywhere and do anything that I feel like doing...	well...sometimes freedom does cost a lot... like fuel and maintenance...
I get to spend time with my family, brother, sister, my beloved girlfriend, my friends and other cousins, nephews, neices and relatives...	Most of the time, I'm the one who treats them...huhuhu...but ats all worth every single cent...
I'd be able to join park shuffle or go to Pustaka... I could also jog and do aerobics...	NIL

It seems that blogspot has trouble with tables...there's a break that I cant remove after each rows...well, nvm... as long as the message gets through... The main reason I'm here in KL is to take care of my cousin... Sure KL offers higher pay in terms of salary, but the cost of living here is also higher compared to Kuching... and I AM the type of guy who gets home sick, and misses my family, friends and not to mention my girlfriend... There's also a certain person that I miss most, but who that person is will be my dirty little secret... hahaha... If ur reading this, u know who u r...

Well, I sure cant make up my mind whether to stay or to go back to Kuching... Physically I am here, but I wish to be nowhere else other than home...