2009 resolution

Hey y'all... how was Christmas? I must say that although I don't celebrate it, I do feel the spirit of the holidays... Though for me holidays or not makes not much difference since I’ve got nothing to do anyways.. I’ve been lounging around the house, practically rotting myself away.. but then in all that time I spent on my own, and in the midst of occasional conversation with my cousin, her boyfriend, her friend and my own brother, I came to a clear definition of where I am at this particular point of my life... I cant exactly put it into words, but yeah, there’s no mistaking that moment of realization that is just as brief as it is awakening...

I am at that point of my life where I should make a stand.. I should be making my own decisions, those that are important as well as petty... I should be taking charge of my own life, and not let anyone boss me around.. I shouldn’t be just a bystander in their lives (my cousins, her boyfriend, her friend, and even my own brother).. I am alive, and therefore should have my own life.. I love them, but that doesn’t mean that I have to do whatever they expect of me...

So guys, here is my new year resolution.. Year 2009 is going to be a very different year for me.. I know now (owh, it feels so refreshing to finally be awaken) the difference between what is EXPECTED from me, and what I WANT for myself.. And I’ll start with the things that I can control and change...

FIRST is that I am going to make decisions for myself.. My cousin, next to her is her boyfriend, and my brother (I don’t give a damn about that friend of hers that stays in this house.. I’ve had enough crap from him for one lifetime..) always has their way about when it comes to me.. Always wanting me go job hunting here at this company when I clearly don’t fit in (they asked me to go interview for a marketing position even if they know I’m an IT graduate.. No more of that crap.. I decide where I want to work, and that’s that.. And for the most part, they’d always drag me out and about sweet-talking me into buying this and that.. most of them I don’t need.. I’m not gonna eat food that I don’t want to eat, and I’m not gonna wear clothes that I don’t want to wear... The “Ok, I’ll eat that” and “Sure, I think i can wear that” K-rule is now officially GONE!!!

SECOND is that ... well .. since there is a chance of leaking information, I’m gonna keep this to myself.. but I’ll give you guys a hint.. aeroplane..

THIRD I am going to take better care of the ones that matters most in my life.. My family, my girlfriend and all of my friends.. And I’m gonna do all that without compromising my FIRST resolution... and to do that, I have to first take care of myself.. Be more managed and manageable.. be more responsible and take up the responsibilities that I should be taking years ago.. Less selfish, more selfless.. Less mourning about them things that I can’t change or have no control over.. And try to go with the flow for a change instead of charging blindly... Overall, I need to change.. correction, I WANT to change...

FORTH is I am going to get a job, doesn’t have to be my dream job, just a job.. As long as I have the chance to prove what I’m worth, and give myself the pleasure of providing for my brother, my sister, my mom and dad, my girlfriend and my friends, (my my, that’s a lot of mouths to feed) that’s pure satisfaction for me..

FIFTH I am going to get a Masters Degree.. Of course, that cannot be done in one year, but I can start in 2009 right? So there...

There’s my FIVE year 2009 resolution.. To all involved directly or indirectly (whatever that means) in my life, prepare for the coming of K-Rule 2009... My alteredego finally lifts up to its name... Muahahaha!!!!